So I will start off by saying and recognizing that I am very well aware of me not being the first to go back to school and engaging in a career change but this blog is about me so, I am that 30 something year old student and just survived my first week and all I have to say is "Holy Shit!"
Being a single mom, recently laid off, still waiting on child support and going back to school is a formula for "crazy" right now.. lol.. You would think I like crazy but crazy just finds me. I'm excited about this career change but at the same time scared. I question my actions and wonder if I am doing the right thing. I question whether what I am doing will pay off in the long run b/c at the end of the day, my actions just don't affect me but affect my children and our future. Will I survive for the next year without working to go back to school? Will I end up striving in my new career choices? Will I have time for "me" after the week is over? Will my mothering be affected through this all?
So many questions, so many doubts and so little answers. My friends think I am strong and ambitious for what I am doing; I look in the mirror and see doubt and fear but I leaped, I jumped and I took the road less traveled by and hope my fate will lead me in the right direction, to the right answers and maybe a little happiness and good at the end of the rainbow.
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yaay!!!! no doubts or fear. stay optimistic and strong. you already know that the harder the task, the better the outcome. we travel similar routes (schooling anyway) and can help each other stay motivated and get thru! you will be better than ok :)
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WooHoo! Don't be scared, you are strong and will succeed. Good things will come to you.
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